Chapter 63—Jealousy and Faultfinding
Brother G,
At-----you asked me some questions of which I have been thinking
much. From my conversation with you, I am convinced that you do
not realize the part you have acted and the wound you have brought
upon the cause of God. That which had been shown me in regard to
you, came vividly before me, and I have compared that which has
been recently shown me with the testimony published in regard to
you in Testimony No. 6, and I cannot see the least apology for your
course. Before you were a partaker in, and lent your influence to, the
late fanaticism in Wisconsin, you were not right in the sight of God.
Brother G, if you had honestly followed the light, you would never
have pursued the course you have taken. You have willfully, stubbornly
followed your own course, and relied on your own judgment, refusing
to be led. The Lord sent you help, but you refused to accept it. What
more could heaven have done for you than has been done? When you
have thought that others were more highly esteemed than yourself, you
have felt dissatisfied and irritated, and have been pettish and distant
like a spoiled child. You have wished to be highly esteemed, but have
taken a course to greatly lower yourself in the estimation of those
whose approbation you desire.
Before your fanatical course you were jealous of those at Battle
Creek, and have thrown out hints which would excite suspicion. You
have been jealous of my husband and myself, and have surmised evil.
Envy and suspicion have been united. Under an appearance of consci-
entiousness you have suggested doubts in regard to the movements of
those who are bearing the burden of the work at Battle Creek, and have
thrown out hints in regard to matters of which you were wholly igno-
rant, and utterly incapable of judging rightly. The burden of matters
there was not laid upon you. I was shown that God would not select
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a person with a mind constituted like yours, and lay heavy burdens
upon him, and call him to fill the most responsible positions; for self-
esteem would be so prominent that it would be ruinous to himself and
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