Letters (Written May 10, 12, 16, and 17, 1876)
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James White Like Himself Again—I had great freedom in speak-
ing one hour. All were deeply attentive. But the best part of the matter
was that Father went into the stand, sang and prayed like his own self.
This is God’s doing and His name shall have all the glory.—
Manuscript
Releases 10:36 (1877)
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A Few Weeks After James White’s Death—I miss Father more
and more. Especially do I feel his loss while here in the mountains. I
find it a very different thing being in the mountains with my husband
and in the mountains without him. I am fully of the opinion that my
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life was so entwined or interwoven with my husband’s that it is about
impossible for me to be of any great account without him.—
Letter 17,
1881
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Years After James White’s Death—My husband, the faithful
servant of Jesus Christ, who had stood by my side for thirty-six years,
was taken from me, and I was left to labor alone. He sleeps in Jesus. I
have no tears to shed over his grave. But how I miss him! How I long
for his words of counsel and wisdom! How I long to hear his prayers
blending with my prayers for light and guidance, for wisdom to know
how to plan and lay out the work!—
Selected Messages 2:259 (1899)
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My husband died in 1881. Since that time I have done more work
than in all my life before in carrying responsibilities and in writing and
publishing books. When my husband was dying, I promised him that
with the help of my two sons I would carry on the work that he and I
had done unitedly, if the Lord would be pleased to give me strength. I
have not studied my ease. I have refused to fail or become discouraged.
And I have not been told in words that I shall see my husband in the
City of God. I hope that I should not need the evidence of words to
give me this assurance. I have the evidence of the Word of God that my
husband loved the truth and kept the faith. And I have the assurance
that if I follow on trustingly, faithfully, doing God’s will as a faithful
messenger, my husband and I will be reunited in the kingdom of God.
I have not one particle of doubt regarding my husband’s preparedness
to lay off the armor
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The year [after] [This word was previously transcribed as “before,”
but internal evidence suggests that it should have been “after.”
] my
husband’s death was the most trying one I ever experienced. But since
the life-giving power came to me as I stood in the large tent at the
Healdsburg camp meeting, I have felt in a special sense that the Lord