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from God, but that portion which points out and condemns my course
of conduct is from Sister White alone, and bears not the holy signet.
You have in this way virtually rejected the whole of the messages,
which God in His tender, pitying love has sent to you to save you from
moral ruin.
The Truth Which Condemns—God presents to you His will and
ways which are in marked contrast in just that way which your case
requires, and you are hereby tested whether you will accept the reproof,
fall on the Rock and be broken, or will you become vexed over plain
statements that come close to your soul, because it [the reproof] is
the truth and condemns you, and then you feel at enmity with me.
Hebrews 4:12
. There is One back of me which is the Lord who
has prompted the message, which you now reject, and disregard, and
dishonor. By tempting God you have unnerved yourself, and confusion
and blindness of mind have been the result. A fierce determination has
sprung up in your heart in a spirit of defiance to brave it through....
You have a work to do for your soul that no one else can do for
you. Your course of error and wrong has been the means of helping
others in the same direction. You were never alone. The same hand
that traced the characters over against the wall of Belshazzar’s palace
was registering in the books of heaven the deeds and words that made
Christ ashamed of you. You had no respectful courtesy for those whom
you should have treated with respect and to whose wants you should
have been attentive. These unholy things unfitted you to do the work
of the Lord; but in your unholy hands you took your Bible and led the
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worship, and as mouthpiece for God you were foremost to preach to
the people. Where was your conscience? Where was your humility?
Where was your fear of God? Where was your faithful work to keep
the Health Retreat up to the highest standard?—
Letter 16, 1888
(written
April 30, 1888).
The Lord Lives—We had a private meeting where humble con-
fessions were made by Elder M and Brother and Sister N....
Well, the Lord lives. I have had a hard battle and some precious
victories gained. Elder M is clothed and in his right mind, humble,
tender, and broken before God. Humble as a child. I see no way but
to keep bearing the plain testimony in love, in patience.—
Letter 27,
1888
(written May 29, 1888).