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once taken an active part in the cause and then be set aside, having
no part in it, seemed so terrible. We thought you had repented. We
prayed for you very earnestly, and in a dream your case was presented
before me.
A Second Trial, Although Unworthy—I dreamed that although
you were wholly unworthy, God would give you another trial. At once
we made what efforts we could to get you to Colorado. We knew we
were doing this in direct opposition to leading brethren who knew
your case. We took the responsibility upon ourselves. We told you
this. When the vision was given me two years ago, some things were
shown me in regard to your dangers, which I faithfully wrote to you,
informing you what course you must pursue.
At the same time I pled most earnestly with you not to make a
failure this time, that now was your time, now your day of opportunity;
if you failed here it would be disastrous to you. I wrote private letters,
I urged upon you what you must do and the earnest efforts you must
put forth. Read Testimony No. 28. [See
Testimonies for the Church
4:306-383
.]
An Unheeded Warning—When in Colorado one year ago, your
course grieved me, not from any personal difference, but I saw that
you were not doing as God had told you you must do. My heart sank
within me. I gave you a warning, but you did not heed it. I knew then,
as I know now, that you were making a failure. I had your course
marked out plainly in regard to the fruit we should see in you, if you
would sense your state and improve this last trial....
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Character Demoralization by Vanity and Envy—When you
went to Colorado you had an excellent field, an excellent home; and
oh, so much better privileges than some of our brethren have. You were
familiar with the truth which you presented to the people, and some
responded to it. You were humble at first.... You continued to labor,
but you began to think that you were really quite an acquisition to the
cause, and resented everything that did not look as though your efforts
were appreciated. Very early you began to complain and express your
dissatisfaction....
When we tried to set things in order, you were not one to humble
yourself as did David. Contrast your feelings and your sense of sin
with his repentance and humiliation. Your influence was on the side of
the enemy. You were as a man in a maze. You began to recount what