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expected to see. A ball of fire came down from heaven, and struck
Sister Ellen Harmon right on the heart. I saw it! I saw it! I can never
forget it. It has changed my whole being. Sister Ellen, have courage in
the Lord. After this night I will never doubt again. We will help you
henceforth, and not discourage you.”
Fear of Self-Exaltation
One great fear that had oppressed me was that if I obeyed the call
of duty, and went out declaring myself to be one favored of the Most
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High with visions and revelations for the people, I might yield to sinful
exaltation, and be lifted above the station that was right for me to
occupy, bring upon myself the displeasure of God, and lose my own
soul. I had known of such cases, and my heart shrank from the trying
ordeal.
I now entreated that if I must go and relate what the Lord had
shown me, I should be preserved from undue exaltation. Said the
angel: “Your prayers are heard, and shall be answered. If this evil
that you dread threatens you, the hand of God will be stretched out to
save you; by affliction He will draw you to Himself, and preserve your
humility. Deliver the message faithfully; endure unto the end, and you
shall eat the fruit of the tree of life and drink of the water of life.”
After recovering consciousness of earthly things, I committed
myself to the Lord, ready to do His bidding, whatever that might be.
Among the Believers in Maine
It was not long before the Lord opened the way for me to go with
my brother-in-law to my sisters in Poland, thirty miles from my home,
and while there I had an opportunity to bear my testimony. For three
months my throat and lungs had been so diseased that I could talk
but little, and that in a low and husky tone. On this occasion I stood
up in meeting and commenced to speak in a whisper. I continued
thus for about five minutes, when the soreness and obstruction left
me, my voice became clear and strong, and I spoke with perfect ease
and freedom for nearly two hours. When my message was ended, my
voice was gone until I again stood before the people, when the same
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