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head won’t fit my shoulders. Keep it where it belongs, and I will try
to honor God in using my own. I shall be glad to hear from you, but
don’t waste your precious time and strength lecturing me on matters
of mere opinions.”
There is considerable more of the same kind
.
Now, Lucinda, my course is clear. I shall not cross the plains this
summer. I would be glad to bear my testimony in the meetings, but
this cannot be without worse results than we could gain
.
Will you not write me something in reference to these things?
Why do you keep so silent? How is James’ health? I had a dream that
troubled me in reference to James. What is your mind in reference to
the children?
In haste.—
Letter 66, 1876
(May 16, 1876).
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[The following sentences were written in the margin of the first
page of the letter:
] “This arrangement of Walling’s to have his family
go to the Centennial, May does not like. She does not want to see
Walling, and is opposed to going East. I shall not go East. I am
decided. I get no light to go anywhere. EGW.”
Dear Sister Lucinda,
I am sorry I wrote you the letters I have. Whatever may have
been my feelings, I need not have troubled you with them. Burn all
my letters, and I will relate no matters that perplex me to you. The
[Sin]bearer is my refuge. He has invited me to come to Him for rest
when weary and heavy laden. I will not be guilty of uttering a word
again, whatever may be the circumstances. Silence in all things of a
disagreeable or perplexing character has ever been a blessing to me.
When I have departed from this, I have regretted it so much
.
You knew when you left that there was no one I could speak with,
however distressed I might be; but this is no excuse. I have written to
James a letter of confession. You may read all letters that come from
Oakland to him, and remail [them to him] where he is. I know not
who to send letters in the care of at Kansas
.
I received last night a letter from James expressing a very [dif-
ferent] tone of feelings. But I dare not cross the plains. It is better
for us both to be separated. I have not lost my love for my husband,
but I cannot explain things. I shall not attend any of the eastern camp
meetings. I shall remain in California and write
.